She told me I downplay myself.

She told me i downplay myself.

The other woman never said that. The other woman actually said the opposite. There was nothing to downplay, in her eyes. Nothing I did was good enough.


I didn't even see why it was a problem until she told me. 

And even then, I didn't understand.


I do now.

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