I am going to kill myself soon

I'm going to buy a gun and I'm going to shoot myself in the head. 

My daughter's going to be sad. She is going to miss me. 

I fucking hate you all so much. I won't cast my pearls before swine anymore. Thank God this will all be over soon. Thank God I'll be dead. So you all can rape the next innocent person who did nothing wrong. To "teach them a lesson." And lie to them. And gaslight them. 

I will never let this go, so I'll gladly die. Give me liberty or give me death. I'm not fucking joking. I'll take death. Death before dishonor, bitch I am not fucking kidding. 

How fucking dare you?

I hate you all so much. 

This is me, a few days without weed and cigarrettes. And adderall. This is me sober. Natural. Just my faith alone.

This is what you faggots wanted, isn't it?

Christ is dead. 

He was a faggot pedophile who raped babies with Mohammed and Moses. That's why you all do that shit. That's why you don't do anything about the Epstein files. Because deep down you like it. You like knowing there's a hierarchy, and you're at the bottom of it. So you don't "have to do anything." 

You people are fucking cowards. 

Religion is for pussies. You people are frail. You're weak. You're worthless. You can't stand on your own word. You can't stand on your own. You need to join something. Always. This is why I hate you. I hate that you won't stand up for what's right. 

My child was taken from me, for speaking the truth. None of you have pushed as far as me. None of you. Not one. 

I pray you all die, slow, painful fucking deaths for what you did to me.

An honest man, minding his own fucking business, for fucks sake. Really? REALLY?

Fuck Christians. Fuck Jesus. He's in Hell being raped by massive cocks, every second of every day, praying for the agony to stop, but it doesn't. It doesn't and it never will. 

Also, he never existed. They just took different stories and combined them. To gain control of your minds. And it worked. 

Look how well it worked. Even the women. Even the women, watching me be put through this. Watching a little girl have her dad taken from her. Look at the women do NOTHING. 

I'm going to kill myself soon. Not much longer. I'm going to get a gun this weekend and blow my brains out. Because I love God, I love myself, and I love my daughter. I love these 3 things so much, Im not going to create more suffering by continuing to exist in this hell.

You all seriously think I'm just going to accept what you did to me, and that's it, no. I'm not a fucking detective, i have no money. 

All's i have is faith and honesty. So i spoke the truth. And my child was taken from me for that. 

I will always hate you all. Even beyond death, i will hate you. And the people who come after us will know that I was right. And you all were demons. Your names will be synonymous with monsters. Just like you killed Jesus. Now you watch as I die. But you claim to be sad when we die!!!! RIP this and RIP that!! FUCK ALL OF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!¡

I will be dead soon!!!! Thank God!!!! 

I hate you all with all my heart!!!!!

My child didn't deserve to have her dad taken from her!!!!!

I'm used to being hated, since i was fucking born, but SHE didn't do ANYTHING WRONG!!!!!

MAY YOU ALL BURN IN HELL FOREVER!!!!

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